Don’t worry, this is not about working out! Although metaphorically speaking, it could be. When you lift weights for exercise, you are repetitively using something heavy to shed excess, to tone, to become stronger. In essence, that is what I am doing. I am using my words and my writing to become mentally and spiritually stronger.
For me, writing is the outlet for all my thoughts. Insightful ones, sad and happy, crazy and creative ones. And once an idea comes to me it flows. I have tried to force it, to make myself write on demand, and it just doesn’t work. It sounds forced, flat, fake…definitely not me. So I wait. It may be days, weeks, months, in the shower or while I lay quietly in bed at night before God lays something on my heart and in my mind. Something that just has to be written, no matter the time or place. The words play on repeat in my mind until I get them out, scribbled and all over the place (kinda like I am on the outside :)). And after I get them down, I feel like a weight was lifted…I feel at peace.
And when those stretches come where life happens and nothing is written and nothing comes to me, I almost feel an itch…a longing to write, to be free of all that is inside me…to be unburdened.
It is a strange thing to contend with-my need to be simple, quiet and reserved wrestling with my need, my calling to write, share, connect with those who feel as I do. To be a voice for God, to praise Him for what He has shown me, given me, blessed me with. I don’t want to be showy or insincere, I just want to send His love and His words out into the world, to do what we as Believers are called to do.
God has given us all a voice, big or small, and the ability to express ourselves in one way or the other. I encourage you to find your own and use it for good, not evil. There is a way to righteously proclaim your individuality and express your thoughts in a godly way. Be the light. Shine so others can see Him in you. Use your strengths for His glory.
Now, I can take a deep breath-in and out, for the weight is lifted, I am unburdened and I am at peace once again.
“Give thanks to the Lord and proclaim His greatness. Let the whole world know what He has done.”-1 Chronicles 16:8
“Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms.”-1 Peter 4:10