“May we be a canvas for displaying God’s powerful works of grace.”-She Reads Truth
Have you ever struggled with those deep down emotional struggles that only you and God know you are fighting? I tend to have a lot of these inner battles with myself, constantly struggling with my conscience, that knows what is right and what is wrong while fighting the rebellious nature that I have had since childhood. I am constantly at war with the feisty stubbornness that is inherently part of me and I ask myself, is this something I should be ashamed of or something I should gently tame, because after all, did not the Lord create me with all the traits He meant for me to have? It’s something I really struggle with, because my stubbornness(my pride, sinfulness even…?)is the one thing that brings out my shameful inner ugliness and its not a nice feeling. But its also the one thing that gives me my confidence(what little there is). I would rather go down fighting, hanging on to the bitter end, than to let something make me feel like I am not worthy or capable or that I am easily defeated.
How do I tame it? How do I change?
So, I cry out to God to help me, change me, take it away! Make me better, Lord! Give me a spirit of meekness and humbleness and gentleness. These things I need and only You can give….
“And in my distress, I called to the Lord and He answered me.”-Jonah 2:2
“Little girl, I say to you, arise!”-Mark 5:41
“Come boldly to the throne of grace.”- Hebrews 4:16
“For by grace you have been saved.”-Ephesians 2:8
“I have loved you with an everlasting love.”-Jeremiah 31:3
“For you are God’s masterpiece created in Christ Jesus to do good works which God prepared in advance for you to do.”- Ephesians 2:10
“For you are fearfully and wonderfully made…”-Psalm 139:14
I’m just a work in progress, wrapped in God’s amazing love and grace.
Those traits that you struggle most with can be redeemed by God for this glory…stubbornness can turn into perserverance, pride can become boasting in God!
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Such beautiful and honest thoughts, Brandi! Thank you for being His vessel to encourage others!
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