“May we be a canvas for displaying God’s powerful works of grace.”-She Reads Truth
Have you ever struggled with those deep down emotional struggles that only you and God know you are fighting? I tend to have a lot of these inner battles with myself, constantly struggling with my conscience, that knows what is right and what is wrong while fighting the rebellious nature that I have had since childhood. I am constantly at war with the feisty stubbornness that is inherently part of me and I ask myself, is this something I should be ashamed of or something I should gently tame, because after all, did not the Lord create me with all the traits He meant for me to have? It’s something I really struggle with, because my stubbornness(my pride, sinfulness even…?)is the one thing that brings out my shameful inner ugliness and its not a nice feeling. But its also the one thing that gives me my confidence(what little there is). I would rather go down fighting, hanging on to the bitter end, than to let something make me feel like I am not worthy or capable or that I am easily defeated.
How do I tame it? How do I change?
So, I cry out to God to help me, change me, take it away! Make me better, Lord! Give me a spirit of meekness and humbleness and gentleness. These things I need and only You can give….
“And in my distress, I called to the Lord and He answered me.”-Jonah 2:2
“Little girl, I say to you, arise!”-Mark 5:41
“Come boldly to the throne of grace.”- Hebrews 4:16
“For by grace you have been saved.”-Ephesians 2:8
“I have loved you with an everlasting love.”-Jeremiah 31:3
“For you are God’s masterpiece created in Christ Jesus to do good works which God prepared in advance for you to do.”- Ephesians 2:10
“For you are fearfully and wonderfully made…”-Psalm 139:14
I’m just a work in progress, wrapped in God’s amazing love and grace.